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Oct. 13th, 2013 08:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
everyeyedothdwell[ It's not even that uncommon that Thomas ends up like this, really. Too boneless and exhausted to even lift his wrists up for Christina to untie them; too much to do more at all than stare up at her with heavy, misted eyes.
He wants to say something but his tongue hangs heavy in his mouth and his mind is thick and almost drugged, and so in the end the best he can do is to lie there, curled on his side as sweat and come slowly dry on his skin, and lose himself in the slow throbbing across his back and ass and the backs of his thighs where Christina had taken a crop to him until he'd nearly blacked out with the pleasure-pain of it. ]
He wants to say something but his tongue hangs heavy in his mouth and his mind is thick and almost drugged, and so in the end the best he can do is to lie there, curled on his side as sweat and come slowly dry on his skin, and lose himself in the slow throbbing across his back and ass and the backs of his thighs where Christina had taken a crop to him until he'd nearly blacked out with the pleasure-pain of it. ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 07:51 pm (UTC)(they'll have to leave soon, but there's no harm in a little of this)]
Was it good?
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:00 pm (UTC)(he stares up at her though, through slitted eyelids)
(has she ever looked so beautiful as she does now, when all the thoughts are pushed aside in his mind and wrapped in cotton wool, so that only she shines through clear and perfect?)
(his eyes slip shut totally after a few moments, and he just barely manages a twitch of the muscles at the corners of his mouth before his mouth relaxes as much as the rest of him, falling just barely open) ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:18 pm (UTC)(it's almost frightening, sometimes, seeing him so...out-of-body)
(but she knows how he loves it.)]
You forgot to speak, Thomas.
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:25 pm (UTC)Thomas flutters his eyes open for a brief moment before they slip shut again, and makes a soft noise. ]
Yes, neesama. S'perfect...
[ He sounds like he's barely there at all, voice quiet and breathy, and even his breathing is soft and almost-silent once the words stop. ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:30 pm (UTC)We've got to get up soon, you know.
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:33 pm (UTC)(he barely even understands what she's saying)
Brows knitting into a frown, Thomas whines in the back of his throat. ]
Sleep...
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:50 pm (UTC)No sleep.
[She pushes the covers down a little, so Thomas' chest is bared.]
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Date: 2013-10-13 08:54 pm (UTC)(not that he's sure he could if he wanted to) ]
Too tired...
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:01 pm (UTC)I know, Thomas, but once you get up it'll get better...
I promised my double we'd meet him.
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:07 pm (UTC)(there's a shiver, though, at the mention of that double of hers)
(even as foggy as he is right now, the thought of them still calls to mind the... other thoughts that being around them prompts) ]
No...
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:17 pm (UTC)[She sits up and stretches out a little. She's a bit worn out as well.]
They asked me last time if you thought there was something wrong with them.
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:21 pm (UTC)(his eyes are burning suddenly and his stomach clenches nervously and he wants, more than he ever has before, to go back to not being able to think at all) ]
Not with them.
[ It's quiet and hoarse, echoing a sentiment Thomas has barely even acknowledged in his own mind. ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:26 pm (UTC)[She lies back down, moves in a little closer to him.
(him?)]
Tell me.
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:32 pm (UTC)(a short, sharp shake of the head)
(she's...) ]
Can't. Wouldn't be okay.
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:43 pm (UTC)[She puts a hand on (his?) cheek.]
I promise.
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:49 pm (UTC)(no, no, it wasn't supposed to come out and Thomas can't lie to Christina but)
(Thomas can't tell her, either)
(even if she says it'll be okay...)
(it seems like no time at all since they were at each other's throats, and Thomas can't do anything that might break apart what they have now) ]
No. Can't. Please.
S'okay for them but it's different it's not...
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Date: 2013-10-13 09:54 pm (UTC)[She thinks, for a moment, then nods slowly.]
...you can stay home this once, all right?
But next time you're going to come see both of them.
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Date: 2013-10-13 10:07 pm (UTC)Can't. I can't. Don't make me please don't make me please neesama mistress joousama please--
[ Thomas is worked up into a state now, tugging the blankets up frantically to huddle under them.
(everything's going to be ruined)
(no no no) ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 10:17 pm (UTC)Shh. It's fine. You don't have to go anywhere.
[She'll have to...talk to her double. Consult them about this.
She's not going to let her sibling suffer and hide.]
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Date: 2013-10-13 10:26 pm (UTC)She
(he, he, has to be he but she's--)
can't quite catch her breath, she can't breathe because she's messed it up and--
(Christina's arms are warm around her and Thomas can't stop her tears from coming now)
(you can't say it because saying it makes it real but)
(isn't thinking it the same as saying it to yourself?) ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 11:02 pm (UTC)[She buries her face in her hair, still rubbing at her back.]
You're okay.
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Date: 2013-10-13 11:06 pm (UTC)I don't want this I didn't want this why is it--
I want to go back to before I don't want to think about it...!
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Date: 2013-10-13 11:08 pm (UTC)[She's still holding her as close as she can.]
...why?
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Date: 2013-10-13 11:11 pm (UTC)If we ever ended up back home...
[ Maybe Byron's gone now but he was a shadow over both of them for long enough that--
(Thomas is so tired of being a disappointment) ]
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Date: 2013-10-13 11:13 pm (UTC)[...she doesn't know what to...]
...it doesn't matter to me. You know that, don't you...?
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